Intoxication

There are days when solitude, for someone my age, is a heady wine that intoxicates you with freedom, others when it is a bitter tonic, and still others when it is a poison that makes you beat your head against the wall.

-Colette on 'Freedom', 1908

I wished I could submerge into permanent intoxication right now.

Bangkok passion

I fell in love with Bangkok the first time I was there.

For some reasons, I just have the hots for this place! Somewhere I do not mind going every year. And I'll be going with Shihui and Cynthia this July! Yay!

I guess I'm really ravenous for travelling and especially travelling to Bangkok just whets up my appetite. Ha!

I can't wait for the week after next to arrive... my first time to Sydney! I'll be meeting up with Annie, my ex-colleague in Accenture who has migrated there from Thailand. And she's expecting for almost 4 months. Happy for her!

Okay. I need to refresh my memories for the Bangkok itinerary I planned a coupla years back. Anyways ladies, do leave the planning to me! :)

Camwhoring...

Sometimes pictures tell a thousand words don't they?

I was really in an inspired mood to take pictures today. I'd no idea what my objects were going to be so I followed my heart and these are my masterpieces! Hee.

On my way to office...

Overlooking at Laguna Park's balcony...

Failed attempts at capturing the Singapore Flyer cause car was moving...

Taken @ Clarke Quay

"Take only pictures, steal only time, leave only footprints." - Unknown

12 hours

That's the number of hours I work almost everyday.

I know I shouldn't sound deploring. But oh well, it's siphoning my energy day after day. The endless meetings, projects, daily KPIs, bosses' expectations and all. I seriously wished I have 36 hours a day or something.

However dreadful or burdening work is, I still very much need to work. Not just because of the dough I need to bring home, but more to fill up the soul. I guess without work, I'll be an empty shell.

I think I'm really turning into a workaholic. This is disastrously disturbing.

I foresee another 12 hours tomorrow.

"All paid jobs absorb and degrade the mind." - Aristotle

The Pursuit of Happiness

Watching "The Pursuit of Happyness" injected me with some consequential thoughts to ponder.

This meaningful 2006 movie relates the true story of Chris Gardner (acted by Will Smith) who was struggling to make ends meet for his family through a salesman job. Failing to obtain and sustain a decent income, he eventually landed himself in inevitable debt woes. His wife left him and he's left to raise his son on his own. Through umpteen failures in his job and tough financial patches, he managed to get into a stockbroking firm as an intern and with his unbeaten determination and the strong bond between him and his son, he emerged himself as the most outstanding intern after 6 months of hard work and got himself a place in the company. He went on to create more miracles and actualized success in the end.

Yes, that was the story in a nutshell.

What especially moved me was the way the protagonist remained optimistic despite cruel adversities. He believed in pursuing simple happiness in every little possible ways that he could shower his son even though he may be penniless or encountered failure in his career. What I find incomplete is that the love between his wife and him could not withstand the test of time and obstacles.

In life, I guess there's always something that we find incomplete. You may not realize it now, but you will somehow in another phase. Some people are forever in pursuit of this 'incompleteness" which they may not even know what it is. So as a result, they will never be happy or be contented in the least respect. Why don't they pursue happiness instead? Happiness that can promise bliss at that instant. It is a feeling so magical and beyond words that one could describe.

I don't really recall possessing this feeling for a long time. Perhaps if I ever did, it could have been blanched with recollections more harrowing and excruciating. If I ever feel it again, I promise I'll never let it leave my memories anymore.

I want to learn to pursue happiness all over again.

My blog is revived!

I almost thought my blog is doomed, for it can never be revived back into my life.

Only then that I realized the importance of my blog. I'm so glad it came back to me!

Itchy-hand me attempted to edit the blogskin and as a result, any freaking updates could not be seen in the blog.

I don't know what I did eventually, but now I can see all the changes I'd made to my blog. Now my blog's got another image. Hmm, still contemplating if I should change to another but I'm in fear of another blog tragedy again. Ha!

I'd so much thoughts yesterday but due to this breakdown, I failed to document into the blog. Oh well, wait till it flows back to me then.

Happy Belated Easter!

Goodnight

"Dreaming permits each and everyone of us to be quietly and safely insane every night of our lives."
- William Dement

May aspiring dreams fill your trance. :)

The Mandala

The Mandala

'A concentric diagram having spiritual and ritual significance in Hindu and Buddhist Tantrism. The mandala may have derived from the circular stupa and the ritual of walking around the stupa in a circle. The mandala is seen as a microcosm embodying the various divine powers at work in the universe, and it serves as a collection point for the gods and universal forces. Numbers of deities have specific positions in the diagram, and the symbolism and structure of the mandala are highly elaborated. The mandala symbolizes the totality of existence, inner or outer.'

What is your Mandala like? :)

Unwinding...

It's time to unwind and simmer this weekend!

I feel a mixed surge of love and resentment whenever it approaches the end of the working week. This is because while I look forward to seek solace, my body is experiencing the aftermath of the overtaxed week.

Ok unfortunately, I have decided to make a trip to office tomorrow and finish up some ad-hoc stuffs, so as to appease myself. I know work is never-ending but oh well... I'm becoming more like a workaholic. I never knew I could transform as such. Ha.

What other agendas will be encompassing my day? I'll be going to the Buddha Relic Temple in Chinatown to watch the nuns from Nepal construct the Mandala. Kopan Nuns in town!

I'm also catching a movie with Dan. Probably Rule #1! It feels exciting because I haven't watch movies in the longest time!

Running on Sunday at Bedok Reservoir Park! Oh yes, I've registered for the JP Morgan Chase, my first run for this year!

It sounds like an awesome weekend. I can't wait!

Sentosa sightings on 8 Mar

Night emerged.

Serendipity.

The calm beach.

The enticing colourful lights from afar and everywhere.

The cool breeze.

The euphonic melody from Cafe Del Mar.

Laid-back ambience.

Great company. :)

Blogspot's defects?

I'm starting to get a little impatient.

Is anyone facing the same problems as me? I'd several futile attempts in uploading my pictures. Argh!

I hope this will be rectified soon!

*prays*

Quote of the Night

Sometimes I lie awake at night, and I ask, "Where have I gone wrong?"
Then a voice says to me, "This is going to take more than one night."
- Charles M. Schulz

Thirst

I seriously need to quench my thirst for an honourable rest and sink deep into a slumber of repose.

I'm earnestly looking forward to my Sydney trip next month! I need to leave work alone!

I'm going on an exciting expedition to Cafe Del Mar this Sat with Joey and Evoynne. Yay!

Thirsting for relief... even though it's just momentary and impermanent. Because I need that to revive the creativity and vigour inside me.

This Weekend

My weekend in various articulations of pictures..

Feb 29
Leap Year 2008!
I met up with Fiona.
I took a picture of a superbly posh limousine parked outside Indochine and the magnificent night-view of Fullerton Hotel.




















Mar 1
Participated in In Source's rehearsal as an observer and to view their rehearsal for their upcoming performance to be shown in Seoul, Korea in April!
Yunwei in action with grace...





















Mar 2
Went to Actor's Bar @ South Bridge Road to watch Dan's cousin, Gerald jam with his band. He plays the drum well!

Nightfall

I've always adored the mellow moments nightfall has given me.

It is always so rare an opportunity that I get to connect and communicate with my true consciousness.

When bewildered and thwarted thoughts had stained the mind during the day, nightfall is the best antidote to redeem the mental poison.

When nightfall arrives, I turn sleep into a space towards treating my mutilated soundness and when dusk breaks, I'm resuscitated once again.

The charm of nightfall will keep me going on for very long, even though it signifies the beginning of another tentative day. It will keep me going forever.